The biggest problem with me
is something so simple
that it’s impossible to miss.
Can’t not see it,
you know?
So glaring, so obvious –
almost grotesque,
but you can’t ignore it either.
Terrible and unkempt –
I didn’t want to look,
not even glance a smidge,
but I also couldn’t
keep not acknowledging
this hideous issue that I should have seen
a mile away.
It’s me.
You know – me, myself, I.
I figured it out a while ago,
but I wanted to keep passing the buck
because that’s a lot easier
than trying to carry all that baggage.
I can try my best
to blame someone else,
anyone else –
till the cows come home.
Or kingdom come.
Or whatever keeps that mess
at bay.
But when the words are done,
and I am finally alone,
I still see it. And I hate it.
But what can I do?
Keep running to the ends of the earth?
Or at least until I run out of idioms and colloquialisms.
But luckily,
it’s not just me.