Let’s just pretend
that nothing ever happened,
since nothing
has officially happened anyway.
At least not on your end.
It’s all me.
I’m the one who noticed you
and let myself think
about the possibility of anything
more than this
pre-friend thing we have
right now.
Sure I want the friend part,
but I also want more.
Looking at you
makes me think about that
and I can’t help it.
But right now,
I’m ready to just say uncle
and be done –
because it’s also reminding me
of those old scars
that I can usually not think about
too much.
I have enough of those
and right now,
I’m just a little too scared
of accumulating more.
